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Saturday, 26 April 2008, 3:22 PM
Heart attack
When it rushes over you, this feeling of confirmation, it just engulfs your whole being.
Sometimes I wonder if I had told him, would he have told me the same thing back?
Maybe the fate just wasn't there.
Somehow what happened with him never changed me. I'm still as shy as ever with revealing of feelings. Sometimes I just wonder when God will ever reveal the other half of mine. I don't even know if he has or if he ever will. That just makes me a whole lot more miserable. I want to trust him, let him take his time in showing me the right one for me. But as The Click Five sings in 'The Reason Why':
But time is not enough
And that's the reason why
When you're young
you fall in
love
I wonder if it really is accurate. Maybe it's just peer pressure or a need of a listening ear that doesn't come in the form of equally hormonal girl pals.
Isn't life just so frustrating sometimes :(
Meanwhile, I need to dig some hole to hind myself in next Saturday. It's PARENTS-TEACHERS DIALOGUE. It's like the IT event of next month. Everything just blurs away into the background.
Okay enough of emoemo talk :D
I'm really REALLY looking forward to enrichment programmes our school is offering us under 'THE TALENT PROGRAMME'. The modules offered are really exciting. I hope I get into the Confectionery (haha most expensive nonetheless) module. Become some Domestic Goddess Mama! However, I don't see how talented I will become after the whole course, except that I'll just accumulate more knowledge! Total inappropriate choice of words in my opinion.
Oh this reminds me of something I heard recently which enlightened me: "Knowledge does not equal to wisdom". Ah I remember now, I heard that from some guy giving Upper Secondary girls some talk during our Assembly concerning Pornography. Everyone was quite (okay make that VERY) tickled, and that led to my teacher exclaiming to us back in the classroom "I was much more interested in and entertained by your reactions than the talk!", followed by some tsk-tsking :D
Hope I'll get off the computer NOW, and get my bum on the OTHER chair to start some solid work on the workdesk!!
Wish me luck for the coming week!
P.S. Really hope Sino-Singapore Exchange Trip will not be cancelled! (Meeting's on Monday :O)
Random picture (Sports Day 2008!)
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Much Love!
Labels: Depressing, Love, School
Friday, 4 April 2008, 10:23 PM
Ought to refresh.
Hey hey!
Sorry for the total lack of/inconsistent blogging! I have been a very busy woman, jetting about for Choir competition, and getting a good collection of pictures from the experience (: Also had Sports' Day today. It was Olympic Games-based and I'm sure no one really bothered, although credits go to the PE Dept for the hard work! Well, truth be told, we were all caught up with our own camwhoring (well I was caught up with project work admin stuff) and jumping all over the place, opening umbrellas to block out the strong sun rays and rushing to drink stalls for refreshing, cooling drinks :)
The top 3 classes from each level for yesterday's Spirit of the Class Cheering Competition also performed. Even though our class didn't get one of those places, I'm sure in our hearts, we won. And this time, I can mean what I say and not say it for the sake of encouragement/consoling. OUR CLASS, 3 DG, FREAKING ROCKS :D IT'S THE BESTEST EVER AND OUR CHEER PWNED. WE HAD ENTERTAINMENT VALUE AND OUR CHEER IS UNFORGETTABLE. That's all that matters, and is all I will say. Memories will be kept safely within me (:
Oh oh, and I finally got my haircut yesterday as well. At Holland V, and it was such a therapeutic experience, particularly because I finally got my scalp massage, nice warm hair wash, nice-smelling shampoo and nice blow-dried hair. AND, OF COURSE, simple-looking but cute short hairstyle! It's not the end-product that really mattered for me, it was the little things like the massage. It matters especially at a time like this when Carnival preparations are driving me c-c-c-crazy!
Success is not final, failure is not fatal. What matters is the courage to carry
on.
Ahh.. That quote was so pleasing to my ears when Daddy said it today. I'm glad he did because he knows how much I need that encouragement right now.
Sorry for the VERY bad NONchronological sequence of events, but I'll still go on anyway!
I had E Math test on Thursday, and I'm so so glad I had tuition on Wednesday afternoon, it so totally saved me from another B3/A2. I do NOT need bad results now, I must get my A1 for E Math! Weird thing is, I can get it for A Math but not for E Math, so am I a weirdo or what ): Oh well, bottom line is I did well for the test, I can feel it in my bones (although we haven't gotten it back)!!
So although this week has been a crash-here-there-everywhere week, everything fell into place in the end, and I would like to thank God :)
Pictures (of Choir trip and today) in a separate post, I don't want to overload you in this one!
Lots of love,
Yiann
Labels: Choir, Friends, Overseas, Parents, Projects, School, Therapy
, 10:13 PM
FAB ITALIA!
Be prepared, very prepared :D





More to come, and Sports' Day photos soon!
Labels: Choir, Overseas
Wednesday, 12 March 2008, 8:47 PM
PICTURES FROM TODAY!
Hello again, 2 posts for today, because I forgot to post photos that besties took with me in my camera after we watched The Leap Years at Plaza Singapura. It was pretty touching and had interesting scenes. I particularly like Joan Chen using her lipstick to draw something on the glass panel (of which I shall not reveal). It was a very heartwarming moment in the movie.
Here are my besties!
(I'm the one who is wearing a yellow top and has red spectacles on!)
Will miss you all when I fly off tomorrow!

Sidenote: Will post pictures of my Grandma's 80th birthday bash on the 1st of March (sorry for procrastinating THIS much!) once I get back and can find enough time to!
Bonjour my friends! Will show you all pictures! :)
Labels: Friends, Outings
, 8:05 PM
Italia!!!
Okay, so I've just finished a superbly full dinner. I was literally dumping all that sweet and sour pork onto my plate and engulfing them. Because soon I will not be able to try Chinese food. Well it's not as tragic as it sounds!! I'll be on my way to Italy, leaving on a jetplane, tomorrow (Thursday, 13th March) at 7am! I'm going with the Choir to the River Del Garda festival (cough, also is a competitionnnn) and these are the high points:
- Rooming with Li Ting my nice junior who shares quite a bit of cool stuff with me.
- Have a very nice section of Alto 2s, which I recently found out I'm the section leader of! Will give my all to do my duties well and good!
- Flying into Doha (HAHA EX-SEA GAMES VENUE!) then transiting into MUNICH (is this where they have good fashionable stuff?) AND BUSINGGGG INTO ITALYYY WHOOOOO!
- Going to Salzburg, where Sound Of Music was filmed!
- GOING TO VENICE, WHERE WATER IS VERY ABUNDANT!
- I AM ONE OF THE 3 CHOIR TRIP PHOTOGRAPHERS MUAHAHA. However, camera batt may die on me (TOUCHWOOD).
OMG I HAVEN'T CHARGED MY CAMERA BATT.
Sorry about the enthusiasm for this trip that is going to kill you >:)
The only low point:
I HAVE HOMEWORK TO BRING ALONG BECAUSE THE TEACHERS WANT TO KILL US WITH THAT MUCH. WE ARE HUMAN, ARE WE NOT T.T
Besidessss, we're going cause we want to go win some international prize back for the school :) so we should be discounted of some homework, for bringing glory to the school (hope against hope we will get GOLDDDD) :D
So TADA! GOING TO DOHA(HAHA), GERMANY (AIRPORT ONLY BUT IT STILL COUNTS :D), AUSTRIA AND ITALY!!
Somebody tranquilize me.
GOD BLESS YOU ALL! PRAY FOR US, THAT WE MAY DO OUR SCHOOL PROUD :D
LOADS OF LOVE <3
Will miss you besties!
Labels: Choir, Friends, Overseas
Friday, 29 February 2008, 8:54 PM
OBS and nothing else.
For five days, and I figured out so much about myself and others around me. Although seniors tend to exagarrate the pain and whatnot experienced, I've decided no complaint will do justice to OBS.
It was fulfilling, packed with strenous but purposeful activities and made us stretch like rubber bands. Although I'm totally covered in sandfly bites (I'm sure I'll survive till I recover), I regret nothing at all.
Each activity allowed me ample learning room and didn't push me too far. People always tend to be the obstacles, and indeed, people skills matter so much when we are pushed to the brim and deprived of well-rested body conditions. I slept on hard ground for 4 nights.
Everything taught me how our bodies don't condition our minds but our minds conditioned our bodies.
Jacqueline managing to climb to the minimum red line of the rockwall made it all worth it after 30 minutes of cajoling and pushing. It inspired all of us to have the same determination we saw in her. People affect in this way; they can either trip you or bring you up.
Backpacking was crazy. We had to trek for almost 2 and a half hours in 2 days. It wasn't the distance and time that disturbed me but the weight of the bags. We've never carried such weights before. Even though it rested on our pretty decently steady shoulders, we still sweated it out and people who don't usually sweat broke out full force.
Nothing can really describe the immense pain and determination you will have to psych yourself into, hands-on is really the only way to find out accurately.
I'd love to tell you what you want to hear, that OBS was just another break from homework, another reason to get outdoors and breathe fresh air. But no, it's to learn from extreme conditions what we're really made of, what we can make out of what we're given. Be it small or big sized people, agile or clumsy, we all can achieve the same things we think we can't. Everything's in the mind.
I really want to thank my Raffles watch for all the fun we've shared. All the team spirit we felt and all the pain we went into and came out of victoriously. Last but not least, to God who gave me the strength when I thought I could go on no more. It's all about the friends, maybe even the enemies. Man sharpening man.
Now that I'm back home, the clean environment makes me uneasy. Maybe that's why roots are always so important, we used to be people living primitively.
Sandflies are the bane of my life. Poor poor skin ):
(And that's the only major issue I have with OBS)
YAY TO LEAP YEAR! HAPPY BIRTHDAY 29TH FEB BABIES! IT'S YOUR PARTY!!
Labels: Camps, Celebrations, Changes, School
Tuesday, 12 February 2008, 8:10 PM
Valentine's Day
I have no Valentino!! I am a sad sad single girl. They always say being single has it's fun and free side, but the grass is always greener on the other side. ESPECIALLY WHEN IT'S A WORLD FLOODED WITH LOVE AND RED POM POM HEARTS!
Oh well, such is the life of me, I'll just have to wait till I reach THAT age for me to start going all crazy over when I can get married and have kids. Speaking of kids, Kui Jien and Sarah Tan were featured in 8 Days!! AND THEY LOOK SO BLISSFUL and photogenic together. Like that kind of couple you won't get jealous of but instead being really happy for. And although Sarah is pregnant, she glows and doesn't look atrociously fat. She
doesn't even look fat. Just her normal self with a 'basketball' as she was quoted as calling the bulge :D
Sweet sweet sweettttt. I bet their baby will be a model baby kind of baby cause he has such good-looking parents and they're so fun and loving!! Envious but happy for the babyyy!
OKAY. SO ANYWAY. Here's a picture of a snowman from a Suzhou exchange partner of another SCGS girl. She sure knew how to make the best out of the especially freezing Chinese New Year they experienced! I bet you think it's cute too :D

All the pink stuff reminds me of Valentine's Day again!!!
Reminder to self: PATIENCE!
ANYWAY, I SHALL NOT BE A SPOILSPORT ;)
Happy Valentine's Day to all the happily attached girls and guys out there!!
Enjoy staying out of Singleton Town! ;)
P.S. Hoping for Pastamania with girl friends tomorrow! *smacks lips in delight*!
Labels: Children, Food, Friends, Love
Thursday, 31 January 2008, 3:21 PM
Knowing me, knowing you, there is nothing we can do
Msn is making me very mad ): It isn't signing me in. I'm surprisingly very very very tired this week. Maybe I should reconsider what I said about this year being great and all. It had a good start, but as my parents always say, can I maintain it and is it consistent? At first my file was arranged really neatly and all, homework always being written down neatly the moment teachers announce about them. Now? Drifting from that quality of being on the ball. I disappoint myself.
Oh well, I can only blame myself. I need my sleep, really. And I have been depriving myself of enough because I always change my priorities. Although tomorrow's Friday, I feel too lethargic to bother about being happy and grateful for the weekend because I know weekend just means tiring Choir practices, tiring studying for tests, and tired me strolling into church. And the last point makes me feel guilty. Considering I've been told I'm in training for the worship team now, enthusiasm for church and the Lord is even more crucial, and should have been there all the while anyway. Oh well, I'll take a day at a time.
HOWEVER, DO NOT LET MY VERY VERY SAD TONE SPOIL YOUR DAY (:
Best of luck to those who feel the same as I do and have a great day (:
*Bought a dress from Topshop earlier for CNY and it's 100% silk and $145+? Well mom thought it was nice and all and decided she'd be okay with the price tag. BUT, now I'm returning it. Someone comfort my dilemma-ish heart ): However, may be walking around Holland V later to try find one replacement :D and take my portrait photographs. P.s. I hope I'll look A-okay ;)
Have a great weekend everyone! Work hard (:
Labels: Celebrations, School
Friday, 25 January 2008, 9:31 PM
When you find no more love, look towards home

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A great week, great pictures, happy me. As in truly truly happy. Genuine, blissful indulgence. Although this week has been a roller coaster ride, but it was worth it. I'm now more ready and equipped with skills to deal with Math. My Higher Chinese isn't too bad (yet and not ever I hope) but I failed my English compo introduction. 4/10 is a very bad grade but considering most of the class got 3/10 or 4/10? I consider it a-okay ;D Just kidding. I hope to finally earn at least 8/10 from Ms Seow soon. I will not live with 4/10 anymore.
I must must MUST admit my religious ride is becoming dry yet again, but I'm glad to say whatever bad thoughts or actions I may harbour, I make sure I get rid of them before they infest my mind. I hope God will continue giving me the strength to shine His light and to build a solid stronghold against Satan. This is a must for me because trusting in God that He helps me through my todays and my tomorrows has spurred a change in me for the past few years.
Studies-wise, I'm very encouraged by the happiness I see on Dad and Mom's faces everyday whenever they see me hard at work and keeping distractions at bay. I only just realised satisfaction from parents are such a major determining factor to how much I want to put in. Although I'm spurred on by their encouraging comments and feelings towards my attitude now, I do know that I'm working for myself. However, I just can't help feeling that I owe them some gratification from parenting and it's time for me to show them fruits of their labour. It's getting easier day by day. I thank God for all that and I sincerely hope I'll be able to maintain that sense of achievement.
Maybe 2008 really is the start to the climatic part of my life.
P.S. SCGS has one of the 2 top scorers for O Levels 2007, scoring 10A1s and 1A2. Proud of you Pearlyn Ler, alumni of Henry Park Primary as well! :)
LIFE IS GREAT!
Labels: Changes, Friends, Parents, Photos, Religion, School
Saturday, 19 January 2008, 1:42 PM
Have you ever
Someone told me he thinks I'm obsessed with another guy. Do I seem so obsessed about certain people sometimes? I don't know maybe I care too much about them till it passes a certain line. Sometimes I can feel it and sometimes I don't. But really I'm just curious about what's been going on with him. BUT THEN AGAIN, I can feel myself crossing the line again. I am in a deep crappy dilemma.
So. The week in short has been great. Minus the fact that so many spring tests were sprung in our direction ): and I was caught by surprise so many times I wanted to die knowing that I'd fail it. BUT, I will not falter I must continue working hard. To best friend in CGS: TRIPLE SCIENCE, YOU CAN DO IT! Don't be a double-science sucker like me. LIKE BECOME A GYNAE MAYBE! And produce many coolio kiddos and be like their Godmas.
The week just flew past in front of my eyes, and now it's Saturday. I'm stuck with COMMONWEALTH ESSAY AND LIT ESSAYS. AND CURRENT AFFAIRS NEWSPAPER CLIPPINGS AND REFLECTIONS ON THEM. Does life get any tougher than this? From what I know, yea it does. And I'm not ready for it.
Maybe the strength radiating from friends will help me live an easier, hectic life. I know it sounds like an oxymoron, but you know what I mean.
On a happier note, possible shopping for new year dress on Sunday evening and Pastamania with SC besties on Wednesday. FASTA, PASS THE PASTA!!
Maybe the week ahead won't be that bad, huh? (:
Labels: Food, Friends, School, Shopping